Some religious rituals, like the slaughter of livestock during Eid, is no longer endurable for me. I cannot fathom nor accept it, as it is a display of celebrated cruelty. Does that make me a hypocrite, since although I seldom eat meat and tried so much not to eat it at all, I still eat poultry and fish. Well, here is the thing: I am thinking of being a vegetarian, but not yet can do it because there is not enough vegetarian food around me. But that does not mean I cannot build the context of my life to be that.

Pain, suffering, can only occur with the development of the brain and nervous system. So every creature who has a brain will have to endure pain. I will stop endorsing it if I can. Slowly I will make these carcasses unavailable to me. I won’t take part of their bodies to my mouth. But if I care about others suffering, I also need to take care of my own suffering. I cannot suffer myself with hunger or malnutrition just because I don’t want other beings to suffer.

It turns out, fortunately, that I also have a disease that makes it hard to break down proteins. So I do need a hard hard diet. I think this intolerance is needed also because of my age and health condition which enables my behavior and hormones to become calmer. Being a vegetarian could ease my pain.

No meat is easy. No poultry or fish is harder. And the aim is to minimize my relationship with cruelty as little as possible. To be as humane as possible, because only humans can have this story.