Cinta, Eksistensialisme, Kontributor, Puisi

Lara

Dia cantik, mempesona dan gemerlap
Dia bahagia, memikat dan memukau
Dia hebat, bersinar dan candu
Jalan buntu menghalangi, menghujam, dan mematung
Lara tak dapat ditolak, namun tidak untuk diundang
Tersenyum tak menampak
Tertawa tak melepas
Hanya sebuah karya Tuhan yang mendamba embun
Lalu bagaimana lara membunuhnya?
Biarlah ia mati, dan kan ku hidupkan lagi dia yang lalu

ISMI, 2022

 Ismi Budiawan mengakui dirinya sebagai Perempuan Matahari dan Broadcaster of Happiness

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Kontributor, Puisi

Tak Bersayap

Semua mata menatap bengis
Isi kepala memendam kebencian
Nurani tak lagi jernih
Jiwa tak berhati
Mengapa harus tak rela?
Sedang aku sempat mendaki saat kau mendayung
Mengapa tuan tak ikhlas?
Sedang kau berkidung syahdu saat aku beriak, memohon, dan menyembah
Merpati terbang menuju bulan
Cahaya surga mendampingi
“Hai, apa kabar?” katanya
Terlalu melampaui sayapnya mengepak
Hingga patah berhamburan

ISMI, 2022

Ismi Budiawan adalah seorang Perempuan Matahari dan Broadcaster of Happiness.
follow dia di @ismibudiawan (instagram)

Cinta, Eksistensialisme, English, Puisi

Skip a Beat

We are hurting each other
Just by existing and living
You see the stars and follow my footsteps
Yet you have to deny me because I was right,
and you hate that.

And my heart skipped a beat
Every time I see you, I’m still looking for you too
once in a while.
On the stars.
In every crypt.

You will always deny me.
You will always be angry.
And hate me. And love me.
In whatever way.
In poems, films, works, go on. Go on.

My heart skipped a beat. One beat. Two beat. Three beat. And in every broken heart and lovers lost… It skipped a beat.

And there’s a little bit of me
In everything you do,
Those are the heartbeat that you took.

By beat. By beat.
And the last beat, will be
for billions of years that
created my first heartbeat.

P.S. It’s so great being on our own in our own little world, ain’t it?

Cinta, Eksistensialisme, Puisi

Burning Brine

Lord I am drowning
In my own tears
Since these glimpses
Just won’t let me go

I see corpses of my uncle, auntie, best friend, father

Dead bodies, empty vessels, fade voices and laughters

And I can’t stop thinking about my sins and guilt

I don’t think I am a victim
On the contrary, I was a perp
Inflicting pain to others
Like strains of hair on her sink
Or scars below her belly
Or my hand marks on her neck

And my dear sibling inability to function
Or my mother constant sadness in her laugh

Jesus how did you take the sins
By being crucified, betrayed.

Sleep now, sleep my friend
All will be done in no time

All shall pass

To the grave in a hope for grace


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