Anthropology, English, Film/Video, Filsafat, Kurasi/Kritik, Politik, Racauan

Conspiracy (kon-spi-ra-si) | LockDown Series Episode 3

For Indonesian language scroll down.

In a YouTube conspiracy theory and fake news channel, a bio terrorism suspect named Juan Dominic is telling the audience how he and his extremist groups started the corona virus. The host of the show, Brian Juno, is setting a trap for Dominic–but Dominic is also setting a trap for Juno, and all humanity.

Dalam sebuah channel teori konspirasi, seorang tersangka bio terorisme bernama kode Juan Dominic membeberkan cara dan alasan penyebaran virus Covid 19. Pembawa acara Brian Juno berusaha menjebak sang teroris. Tapi yang tidak ia sangka, sang teroris juga berusaha menjebaknya; dan seluruh umat manusia.

Me and my friend Camilo made this video to participate in LockDown Series production conducted by MondiBlanc Film Workshop. We usually spent hours talking about philosophy or politics, so what the hell, we just made a fiction out of our usual conversation. This is an essay in a fiction form. Enjoy!

Saya dan sahabat saya Camillo membuat video ini untuk mengikuti rangkaian produksi Lock Down Series yang diprakarsai oleh MondiBlanc Film Workshop. Kami bisa menghabiskan waktu ngobrol berpanjang-panjang soal filsafat dan segala macam teori konspirasi, maka tak ada salahnya kami pakai obrolan kami untuk membuat sebuah karya fiksi yang berdasarkan data dan fakta-fakta— beberapa pastinya ada yang ngawur. Karenanya, ini adalah sebuah esei dialog berbentuk drama fiksi.

Untuk memudahkan penonton Indonesia, saya sudah membuat subtitle bahasa Indonesia untuk episode ini. Silahkan aktifkan close caption youtube dan pilih bahasa Indonesia. Selamat menikmati esei dalam bentuk drama fiksi via zoom ini.

English, Filsafat, Racauan

How to Prove God Exists to Atheists

So, you’re an Atheist?

Okay, you may not believe in God, but do you believe that your mind exists?

Sure you do, if not how do you suppose to read and understand the things I wrote? But how do you prove that your mind exist? Neuroscience could say that there are pulses or hormones, or synapsis or whatever that prove the existence of an ‘activity’ in your brain. But there hasn’t been any technology that can read your mind, imagination, or memory, vividly. We are living in a dystopia society and a black mirrored future, but mind reading machine still need to be develop for years ahead.

You might say, “Well, the mind exists and we can prove it subjectively and objectively with tools. And like black hole or far away space objects, we will get the accurate data eventually. It’s not Schrodinger’s cat: the mind does exist. But God, on the other hand…”

Let me put it this way then. Your mind, exist. The things you think about, exist in your mind: the imagination, the stories, the myths, the dreams. If you think about God, then She/He exists. If you think God does not exists, it won’t cause God to disappear from other people’s head.

In the end, we will mind our own mind. At least the ‘idea’ of God is in your Atheist head, then the existence or non-existence of God, does exists in your head too. Atheist don’t need to prove the existence of God. It doesn’t matter. But existence of the self, of identity, of politics and other abstract stuff, most atheists feel the need to prove them. Ergo, atheism is a belief system, just like religion. It’s institutionalized by all things secular.

God is problematic because He/She/It is dialectic historically. But the people who believe, are kind of ahistoric when it comes to this discussion. The history or dialectic of God will dissolve the foundation of God as an almighty and infinite being. If God is always changing, then there will be a possibility that it does not exist, and it bugs all the religious people. Atheists in a sense of dialectical, factual based argument, are supposed to be flexible.

But reality is hard, everybody knows that. Even for Atheists, reality is hard. We want to give meaning to our lives , and if we are unable to do so, if we feel that our lives are irrelevant, we need guidance. Religious people get it from their preachers. Atheist or moderately religious people get them from psychologists orang psychiatrist.

We are all human after all. We are all unique, but none of us are special. We need to worship something, and those who say they don’t, are hypocrites.

Cinta, Eksistensialisme, English, Puisi, Uncategorized

Hunger

My hunger

I have told you this thousands of years ago

my hunger

is a monster you can never comprehend

Hell, I can’t even comprehend it myself

My hunger, my hunger

I run like mad horse

a black cube in the desert floating

made of pitch darkness

bottomless vacuum

my hunger, my hunger

How can I love you and live with this hunger

but how can I tell you about this hunger

when you have lost your limbs for me

And my dear doctor asked

“Will you satisfiy your hunger with a new prey?”

To be honest I’d rather die

Yet here I am devouring love

of a Goddess while chewing

at yout bones

English, Uncategorized

Fragment #3

Neon city from the 16th floor.

Haruki Murakami-esque.

Dim sum restaurant, a dark morning.

You made me burn, the chef on the background plays with flame and give effects on my narrative:

Stars a match.

Underpants patterns.

Listen.

Obey.

Jealousy.

Miss you.

Don’t know you.

Let you be.

Songs.

Poetry.

Absolution.

Dissillusion.

Unimaginable dreams.

Magical years in nanoseconds.

Irrelevant time.

Imperfection.

Scrubs on your skin.

Odorless Sweat.

Morning breath, smells like dew.

Fetish to your body.

If I were to find you

among a thousand lives,

I’d let you know

that I wasn’t there.

Hop hop.

Be on your way now.