Kontributor, Prosa

Something in the Last

Every Saturday, Anton went to the edge of the lake, where he last spoke with Natasha, his lover. Anton actually didn’t like being in the lake, he despised nature. He leaned against an old oak tree with many scratches on its trunk. Upon that tree, of which invisible remembrances were pinned least to his mind, Anton was taken back to the day, where they last spoke. That afternoon, he had turned down her invitation to go for a hike to the mountains — together. Like they always used to, except that he hated it — nature. Why go to a place where you were never meant to be? Little did he know, this very question, was the reason why he had found himself returning to this very tree.

Three years had passed since the news of Natasha’s disappearance reached Anton’s ears. The guilt and pain in Anton’s heart did not recover, in fact, it got worse. Anton always thought, that maybe it was because he hated nature, that nature responded so cruelly to him. Took his lover. Took his future wife.

But no other year, no other Saturday.

That afternoon, Anton decided to face the very thing he hated. And so he looked upon the lake and saw his reflection atop the cliff where the oak tree sat. A minute’s contemplation passed, yet Natasha was nowhere to be found. Perhaps, thought Anton, if I brave these cliffs, if I brave nature, I might see her again. And so he did. And hoped to see Natasha again. Somewhere, in a better place than nature.

Cinta, Eksistensialisme, Kontributor, Puisi

Lara

Dia cantik, mempesona dan gemerlap
Dia bahagia, memikat dan memukau
Dia hebat, bersinar dan candu
Jalan buntu menghalangi, menghujam, dan mematung
Lara tak dapat ditolak, namun tidak untuk diundang
Tersenyum tak menampak
Tertawa tak melepas
Hanya sebuah karya Tuhan yang mendamba embun
Lalu bagaimana lara membunuhnya?
Biarlah ia mati, dan kan ku hidupkan lagi dia yang lalu

ISMI, 2022

 Ismi Budiawan mengakui dirinya sebagai Perempuan Matahari dan Broadcaster of Happiness

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Kontributor, Puisi

Tak Bersayap

Semua mata menatap bengis
Isi kepala memendam kebencian
Nurani tak lagi jernih
Jiwa tak berhati
Mengapa harus tak rela?
Sedang aku sempat mendaki saat kau mendayung
Mengapa tuan tak ikhlas?
Sedang kau berkidung syahdu saat aku beriak, memohon, dan menyembah
Merpati terbang menuju bulan
Cahaya surga mendampingi
“Hai, apa kabar?” katanya
Terlalu melampaui sayapnya mengepak
Hingga patah berhamburan

ISMI, 2022

Ismi Budiawan adalah seorang Perempuan Matahari dan Broadcaster of Happiness.
follow dia di @ismibudiawan (instagram)