English, Memoir, Racauan, Workshop

Desoluted 2019 and Resolution 2020

This is my first blog in 2020. In this writing I’m gonna write two things: first is the evaluation of 2019. And second is my plan for 2020.

2019 was a year of struggle for me. I have passed the worst year of my life, which was 2018, when my father died in January. I got into mental institution for having bipolar disorder not long after. And then my relationships with some people in my life, getting really really wrecked. It was a havoc. And I tried to fix it bit by bit in 2019 by making a structure in my life and to make my mental got better. I got laid off from my office in November, effective this early January. Now I have a few months to find a new job.

So in a nutshell, 2019 is kind of a transformative year for me. I don’t know what I’ll become in 2020 but I have some glimpse of it. I have some plans. 2020 is the year of revival of my old self, you know. It’s the Year of Creativity, where I will try my best to become this person that I’ve been longing to become .

And this year, I plan to use the first two or three months to have a free fall for my own business. I will devote myself to education and filmmaking. I will make it my priority.

So in 2020, I am officially will be self employed. And I will recruit some people, not as an employer, per se, but more like making them my partners and hoping that my self-built business will take off the way that I want them to be.

My purpose is for the community. And I’m hoping that I could make some sort of a financial independency from it. Not too much, but enough to keep my kitchen cooking, you know, and keep the fire burning, that’s my point.

And I will continue to make an education system that could be free for the gifted and the hard-workers. To be able to survive in this business I’ve had a meeting with some of my colleagues and we decided that that we will make some paid workshops to make ourselves to be more independent. We’ll still keep the free workshops, the scholarship workshops, as our platform.

Hopefully, some people could give value to it; some sort of investment because they will get more than just skills and portfolios.

While scholarship workshops will be more like guerilla filmmaking and they have to be gifted. They have to be talented in joining the scholarship. And that’s the first thing to do.

Second plan is developing my own production house, Talemaker communication, which will consist of two kinds of two kinds of work, the first work is all about content. So I’m going to propose some content like podcast videos, web series, whatever.

Hopefully I could meet you up and we could make some projects. Creative ones and, you know, social changing, social engineering projects through media or film or workshops or education, whatever that we can do to make life better.

Buku, Kurasi/Kritik

Males Baca Kafka on The Shore

Di penghujung 2019 ini, sebuah tahun ganjil yang gaib, gue dan producer @malesbacapoodcast, Rojak akan membahas Kafka on The Shore, sebuah buku yang nggak kalah ganjil dan gaib dari Haruki Murakami, salah satu dedengkot realisme magis modern.

Di episode ini kami juga masukin satu musik non komersil hasil aransemen gue dan Najmi Ismail yang baru jadian sama salah satu pemeran di drama yang pernah kami pentaskan di Teater Bulungan beberapa tahun silam. Liriknya diambil langsungdari novelnya sebagai sebuah tribute. Vokalisnya Carin, suara aduhai amat dah. Silahkan dinikmati.

dan Selamat Tahun Baru.

Buku, Kurasi/Kritik

Males Baca Homo Deus by Yuval Noah Harari

Buku kedua yang kami bahas di podcast @malesbacapoodcast ini, mungkin adalah hal yang bisa bikin kami masuk penjara karena penistaan agama. Tapi kami akan suruh yang nuntut untuk memenjarakan Harari dan penerbit saja, karena biasanya begitu di Indonesia. Yang salah buku, bukan pembaca apalagi yang malesbaca cuma bisa percaya. Haha!