2018: Year of Love and It’s Terror

Those who know me probably know that 2018 might be one of the heaviest year of my life. In January, I lost my father. I gain some old and new friends. Lost them. Gain some love, lost them. Gain some weight and mental illnesses—Oh, shit they won’t go away. Probably my closest friends now. I…

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Room

There is no outside worldjust this roomspacey, controllable environmentand I am free, inside I escape realityreject responsibilitymy body and mind lack capabilityto move, strive, struggle, no agility But I am not running, nohow can I run if I can’t even stand,nor speak, nor think straightor see the light that bestowed upon me But I do…

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When I Leave

I know I can be hard. So I thank you for staying. But I understand those who left or if you want to leave, since… I can be hard. Who would bear the circling uttered words of meaningless anxiety, the reckless raging action, the inconsistency of commitment, the constant change of plans, the tender love…

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